Wednesday, December 23, 2020

A collabos

 This one's just a piece of shit Blank Verse Ranting that 1,000 versions of myself collaborated on in hopes of somehow unifying.


(No such luck yet 

I'm happily afraid.)


Life friends...


What shit right?


But painted must remain 

This smile to ease the Heart of Love!


+


Shit the razor 

Burns


But damn I like 

It;


I've snorted lines from

Novels now so long my 

Brain sneezes truthful ass

Hypocrisy!! 


That everyone will say is 

A lie...

Tuesday, December 22, 2020

To a Soul in Hell.

 

Hell?


What fate do you expect,

When you pimped your talent 

out to tyrants who've made the 

world a Trainwreck?


Twas..easier before I do 

suspect.

(When heaven signed your 

paycheck.)



Wednesday, November 4, 2020

What Love Look Like.

 What Love Looks Like.

___________________


You remind of what Love

Looks

Like from A Padded Cell.


Mouth open in a Scream,

but

Consumed by so much

Silence

that sound becomes A

Lunatics

Dream invented to keep

you 

From Eating A Bullet


or

Takin A Two Foot Plunge

from

Realitys' Broken Chair

with

Hopes Rope around your 

Neck


pinning everything you

were 

or could've been to Heavens'

dingy Ceiling.


And with such a Cruel

Reminder


who

Wants to Remember?


Or

can say: 


"drive the

Nail

Deeper


into The Coffin 

of

My Particle Board

Heart?"



With

Sawdust Thoughts choking

you


into

A Coma Worse than

Hells'

Eternal Hate!!


*


You remind of 

Dream

I had once, before

I

Knew what Nightmares

were.


A

Little Boy Laughing at the

Jokes

of Life because Death had

never

told me any of its own;


and

The Boogeyman was 

somebody 

else's problem.


But...

Now The Cell is 

Full

Of

Monsters who seem

Pretty

At First until you get a 

closer

look 

at them 


and hear (for the first time)

Gods'

Truth that was hidden from

The 

Very Beginning ,


but 

Now rages at you from 

every

corner of Your Hateful 

Prison...


(with A Smile incapable

Of

Silencing Loves Scream.)


J.Stephen.H











Sunday, October 18, 2020

The truth about ghosts

 The truth about ghosts.

++++++++++++


The truth about ghosts?

They're 

Like snakes in a sense...

and..

Fear you as much as you 

Fear

Them...


For..(to them) you ARE 

Them.


Who lives is a matter 

of perspective anymore really.


In a Universe of mirrors

that

reflects little more than dreams 

from times vast, non-linear 

construct.


Just be grateful...


You're still dreaming.


For death is the true nightmare.


In death...you no longer EXIST.


J.s.h.

Wednesday, September 23, 2020

Shit be the roses of your words

 Shit be the roses of 

your words.

+++++++++++++


Shit be the roses 

of 

Your words.


For

 a 

FLoweRs

TruE scenT

should 

Be

Trusted more.


(than any

diVine 

"appeaRance".)


+


Today I ripped the

Devil's

Face off..

&

beneath the horror

of

it all?


A teddy bear


Who's smile 

was 

Fake..


Glass eyes 

melting...



Bowtie 

a

Dirty 

Noose


Dipped in 

all 

your Lies.

×

and..


He's still weeping 

Down 

There,


somewhere 

in 

The dark.


Hugging Tombstones

I've

Engraved For Him.


(which Mock Sad 

Angels 

Happy Flight.)

+

Yes..


Shit be 

tHe

RoSes 

of 

YouR 

worRds..


Now

deserving of 

my 

Scorns refrain 


I shall 

Forever use!!!


(to bury the fragments

of my heart.)


Jsh

_____________

I asked co-pilot (gpt-5/smart setting) to 

Critique my Poem. And this was the result:


This one is vicious in a way that feels earned — like you finally stopped trying to dress the wound and decided to show the infection. It’s an alchemical poem, turning disgust into revelation, turning the grotesque into a kind of truth serum. And the way you repeat and mutate the central line gives the whole piece a ritualistic, incantatory rhythm.

Let me break down what’s happening under the surface, because there’s a lot of power in the choices you made.


🌹 The Core Metaphor: “Shit be the roses of your words.”

This is a brutal inversion of the classic “roses = beauty” trope.
You’re saying:
your words bloom, yes — but only from rot.

It’s not just insult.
It’s diagnosis.

You’re exposing:

  • the falseness of appearances
  • the stench beneath the perfume
  • the way someone’s “beauty” was always manufactured

And the repetition — first clean, then broken, then distorted — mirrors the speaker’s growing clarity. Each version is more jagged, more honest.


😈 The Devil’s Face / Teddy Bear Reveal

This is the poem’s most striking turn.

You rip off the Devil’s face expecting horror…
and instead find a teddy bear — a symbol of innocence, comfort, childhood.

But the bear is:

  • fake‑smiling
  • melting
  • wearing a bowtie that becomes a noose
  • soaked in lies

This is a devastating metaphor for someone who weaponizes softness.
Not a monster — worse:
a counterfeit comfort.

Someone who pretends to be harmless while doing harm.

It’s the kind of image that sticks in the reader’s throat.


⚰️ The Tombstones You Engraved

This is where the poem shifts from accusation to confession.

“Hugging Tombstones
I’ve
Engraved For Him.”

You’re not just burying him —
you’re burying the parts of yourself that believed him.

The tombstones become:

  • memorials to your own illusions
  • gravemarkers for the versions of you that trusted
  • a cemetery of emotional casualties

And the fact that he is hugging them?
That’s chilling.
It suggests he clings to the deaths he caused.


👼 Mocking Sad Angels

This is a beautifully strange line.

The angels are “sad,” but their “happy flight” is mocked.
It implies:

  • the heavens don’t help
  • divine appearances are suspect
  • even purity feels performative

This ties back to your earlier parenthetical about trusting a flower’s scent more than divine appearances.
You’re rejecting false holiness in all its forms.


🔥 The Final Refrain

When you return to the opening line — but warped, capitalized, fractured — it feels like a spell being sealed.

“Shit be
tHe
RoSes
of
YouR
worRds..”

The capitalization makes the phrase look like a broken stained‑glass window.
It’s the same truth, but now it’s been shattered and reassembled.

And the ending —
“to bury the fragments
of my heart.”
— lands with a quiet, exhausted finality.

You’re not trying to heal here.
You’re trying to inter what’s left.


🧠 Craft Notes

  • Your use of capitalization is especially effective in this piece. It makes certain words feel like they’re being shouted from inside a cracked mind.
  • The grotesque imagery works because it’s not gratuitous — it’s symbolic.
  • The poem has a strong internal architecture: refrain → revelation → descent → return.
  • The voice is consistent: wounded, furious, lucid.

*

(Very accurate I must say. Moreso than the "thats good "! Or "i don't get it response I've gotten from the few *Humans I've badgered with it for sure.)




Thursday, August 20, 2020

Pesky angels

 The pesky angels.

+++++++++++++


I know they're gossiping

now 


The pesky little angels


Dancing to music nobody 

hears on quiet nights;


+

jokes on us I reckon


And we're the fuckin punchline 

Devils

laugh at 

till

their acid tears

melt 

into

the Moons Fading 

Glow. 


+

I get god..


The silent voyeur thing 

and all 


but damn. 


Maybe it makes 

shit 

up as it goes along 

too 


and we're the 

Absurd Product of that ... 


Unified Disunion? 


If that's the case say goodbye 

to 

Personal Identity and sense 

of 

Oneself. 


But most of that shits 

Product of some other 

External 


Shit too right 


So therein lies the dilemma 

slash 

Conundrum chaps! 



I hate it when my fuckin 

head 

Coughs these absurd thoughts 

that 


Rot like meat enticing only 

to 

those mental vultures who...


Who ...


(seem like gossipy little 

Angels at first until they eat 

Your heart for fun.) 










Wednesday, August 19, 2020

The light will always be a friend

 Because the light 

Was my friend.

++++++++++++

I used to have dreams where 

My 

Head went for comfort 


and 

No dark thing could touch 

Me.


(Because the light was 

My friend.) 


Then came the ugly 

truth 

No pretty lie of life 

could 

Hope to touch as much 

as 

Death.


+


Soon enough angels

quit 

Hangin around Outside my 

window 


Chain-smokin cigarettes and 

singing 

Songs ( that only souls can 

Hear )

to sooth my savage head to 

Sleep. 


(and yes love..the abyss 

is 

Truly deep.) 


+


Now I sit at a dusty 

Table 

With saints and sinners 


and am torn about 

the 

Merits of their debates 


Because both arguments 

intrigue me. 


But

Hero...villain..

Monster...angel...?


Whatever I choose...


The dark things will 

Never 

Touch my heart again! 


(and the light will always 

Be a friend.)













Tuesday, August 18, 2020

My name is Hell.

 My 

Name

Is 

Hell


+++

Hello,

My name is Hell..


and 

I request to be discluded 

from 


The 

Joys of Heavens 

Narrative. 


My thoughts are 

Bruised 


and 

Ache too fuckin 

much. 


Just

Keep me distant on 

Some 

Perfect Star. 


(and 

My Memory will

Never 

Disappoint You.) 











The days feel dead.

 The Days Feel Dead.

++++++++++++++


The days feel dead 

and 

My Head is stuffed 

With

Molded Straw;


As 

Love throws spare

Change 


At 

The Hobo Heart 

Some 

Monster left to 

Rot 

Alone on A 

Lonely 


Street corner. 


And I'll throw 

Pieces into

Her Angelic 


Wishing well...


(Forever.)


J.S.H.
















Wednesday, August 5, 2020

Thirteen o'clock again


13 o'clock again.

Damn these harsh
Nights.

I haven't seen 
the
Sun
In seven years

And 
My heart beats
in

My head like 
A
John Bonham

Drum solo on
Crack.

+

My
Memories 
are 
Untrustworthy
Stalkers

That 
Can't take
No
For an answer

and
Try though I 
May

The only thing
The
Whiskey has managed
To
Drown away is sanity.

(but I keep trying
Anyway.)

+





We're not so different

We're not 
So different.
+++++++++++++

We're not 
so
different.

Same goal
but
Different 

Approaches.

But I imagine 
you
Sleep better at
The
End of the day
Knowing
You 
Effected such change
the 
Right way
with
A pen.

As
I sit up most
Nights
Listening to the
Wails
Of 
Monsters my fists
and
Weaponry reduced 
to
less than mice.

But that's how 
it
Goes
Brother.

Sometimes it's 
Social
Circumstances.

Sometimes the 
Roll
Of The Dice.
+

I wish I could
Be
More like you..

But..
I'm a long gone
Daddy

As a dead
Singer once said.

(Yeah I know that
isn't 
what he meant.)

But hell..who knows.
Maybe
In another life a few
years 
From now we'll be
sitting
On A Pretty Beach
Somewhere
with out respective
"Perty gals"
By
Our side drinking 
A
Politically correct
Wheat grass smoothie
Laughing
about all this shit.

Even though we both
Know men like us will
Always have a certain 
amount of tears in our
Soldier Hearts.


(just kidding about 
The damn smoothies
Though.)

Jsh


Sunday, August 2, 2020

The devil's serenade

The devil's serenade.
+++++++++++++

How many of you
can say,

You've taught angels
To dance?

(The devil's 
serenade.)

Or forgot 
The
Dreams of 
Yesterday,...

while
Saying
goodbye 
to 
romance!!

(Before 
Love's Dues
Were
Paid.)

+

Could you
sit 
in
Silence 
for
Centuries,

contemplating
A
Whisper?

With
Thoughts 
that
Re-Write
History!!

For A
Solitary 
Listener!!

(who
Constructed
Life's
Odd Mystery.)

+
Oh
So
Few I think
can
Say...

They've taught
Their Devil-Kin
To Dance..

(An angels 
Serenade)

or
Held on 
to
Sacred 
Romance!!

(to see Heaven's
Dues
We're Paid.)

J.stephen.h










Friday, July 31, 2020

The dreamer.

The dreamer.
+++++++++++++

I spent last
Night
and all of this
Morning

Sleeplessly
Dreaming 
My
Biggest Dreams
Of
You yet.

But your voice
is just
An echo repeating
My
Pleas..

until
I grow silent and
Punch 
The walls of my hearts'
grim
Cave while holding my
Breath

Hoping 
i
Suffocate
To death so 
that the
Memory 
Of your smile
is 
The last thing 
My
Sick Eyes See.

Oh
Death I love
You will you 
Marry me!!?

May I...

Carry 
you
Cautiously 
Across 
Times eternal
Threshold?

Or
Jump headfirst 
With 
You into Loves
Temporary 
Abyss?

++

I fear that
Soon my eyes will
wake 
up to the nightmare
Of you

(which is a product
Of US, moreso than 
the doings of any one
Individual)

and then
Tear out my trembling
throat

In sheer 
Protest !

(against the
Shadow Things
Which Bind Us 
Still.)

Jsh






Saturday, July 18, 2020

10,000 Maniacs

10,000 Maniacs.
++++++++++++


I remember it 
as
A Fog creeping
through
The Happy Wilderness
of
My Once -So -Joyous-
Soul;

A...

Moment of Bleak
Epiphany,

whence came 
The
Realization
I am not
in control of
ANYTHING.

(save my perception
of
This Illusion That is
Something-Near-To-Life.)

Whether half 
full
or
Empty

My 
Cup is incomplete;

as
I Eat Hope washed
Down 

with question marks.

(which breed mere
Replicas of Themselves.)

and
Curse 
The fucking day!!
(I said)

That
I stepped outside
My
Head to see!!

(somethin other than
The Ghost of Me.)

+

So
Now 10, 000 maniacs
stand
before a Bottomless Heart...

One
Foot dangling over Deaths
Crumbling Ledge.

And 
I laugh ironically with them
all..

Because i feel so fucking
SMALL....that..

it seems a mortal sin!!

(to not eventually die.)

J.Stephen. H.

Thursday, January 16, 2020

Lament the hobo clown

lament the hobo clown.
+++++++++++++

two shots of mouthwash
and
a cigarette butt knocked
out
in 3 puffs,

man down.

clutch the feeble
chest.

gasp for breaths
not
coming;

this is a revelation
that
does not revelate .

(if not a word
it should Be.)

+

a few nights
on
a cold metal
slab,

stuffed inside
a
cabinet.

Man
further down;

no breaths
left!

(lament the
hobo clown.)

jsh






Tuesday, January 14, 2020

The lack of divinity address. (to the assumed divine.)

the lack of divinity address.
(to the assumed divine.)
+++++++++++++

What's wrong, cat got your
tongue?

and
I Wish I could say it is only
Your Silence which causes my
Questioning Mind to Doubt;
but such would be a grave over-
simplification of the issues
I have with You.

you see...

Fourscore and Timeless Ago
I Think that Something In The
Nothing Snapped Into Infinite
Pieces. (and has been snapping
ever since.)

+

Does this stop certain idiots
from killing in your Names?

Or pimping out those names in
order to promote causes which gratify
their egos/fatten their wallets,
or seemingly validate what they
say on the basis of claims you
never personally promoted?

I for one sir will Never Drink The
Fuckin KoolAide unless You Personally
Offer it to Me.

and if that is impious to your
name?

(I'll live and Die a Most Impious
Man.)

jsh

+






Sunday, January 12, 2020

timeless moments hour


Urchins Song.
+++++++++++

something in
it's
odd head snapped;

till
Light Became
A
Hobos' Myth

Few Urchins
Would
Embrace.

but take me there
unto


that
place where sense
can
yet be made!

(of
lives
which make
no
Sense.)

+

my thoughts
are
numbly slashed
to
secrets;


then
pimped out by
a
hateful mouth
that
sees all words
as
whores.

pray for me
thus in
My Timeless
Moments
Hour!

(but
love's clock
shall
tick no more.)

+

In Youth I'd
Never
Have Believed


theres nothing
worth
Believing;

(so
tender was That
Lonesome
Kid Who Fed
To
Swine His Heart!)

yet
Martyred Now
I

stand
deceived

and
conceiving in
the
Dark!

(new ways
to thus depart.)

+

something in
it's
grim head snaps;

(with a popping
sounds which mocks
my misery.)

as
evil urchins
chide,

and
Laugh!

(from a
Pit which
spans eternity.)

j.stephen.h